Dealing With Growing Pains As a Freelancer
Raise your hand if you speak wayyy kinder to others than you do yourself? Yeah, me too. 🙋🏾♀️🙋🏾♀️🙋🏾♀️
I posted something to my stories that stopped me in my tracks because I realize it’s something I do as a freelancer way more than I’d like to admit. I shame spiral.
Honestly, it probably goes back to childhood traumas and anxiety. How many of you were that perfectionist, straight A student, that was just trying to be seen and loved? I was definitely one of them and now I think it’s showing up in a different capacity as an adult.
Some folx and I joke around on Facebook about our adulting grade of the day but the truth of the matter is, if it ain’t an “A”, I’m NOT happy with myself. Maybe it’s because I would get in trouble if I brought home anything less than that but all I know is that I am NOT kind to myself when I feel like I mess up sometimes and enter in a full-blown shame spiral.
Expansion is dope and exhilarating and also scary AF simultaneously. I’ve only had to be responsible for me and my client work and having another professional “depend” on me in a different avenue freaks me out. But it’s time. And if I learned anything from the SJR sermon I watched last night, I have to move differently. I gotta rise, slay, and eat. I have to be okay with entering into unfamiliar territory because I know that it’s going to get me to the final destination.
So, as I’m in this super-packed September because multiple clients have massive things happening for them (and we love to see it), I’ve gotta stop fighting myself and start outsourcing. It’s [been] time. Sometimes I just hit a wall and say “ENOUGH” and we have reached that point. I know I’ll thank myself for it.
