Grace Over Grind

Can I be honest for a minute... or more?

You have those moments when you're TRYING to keep it together but as -soon- as someone you're close to asks how you're doing, you're ready to crumble and cry?

Yep. That's how I've felt these last few weeks since I got sick.

Auntie asked me how I was feeling and how was my mental health? I kindly bs’d my answer but truthfully... this hard yall!! 😆

I'm opening up my laptop tomorrow to get back at it for work while it is also the last day of my devotional "Grace Over Grind". Talk about being dragged. I have wanted to fight myself and cuss myself out soooo many times since I've gotten sick because clearly, I’m kind to everyone else except myself sometimes.

I don't know how to fully flesh it out but it's something like... when I transition, I don't wanna be known for grinding until I broke down.

YES. I want to be known for my caliber of work and work ethic, but I would rather be known for my spirit or for my zest for life.

Y'all know me. I'm on the Aries/Taurus cusp. I'm an enneagram 8. I'm a nomadic soul. I do NOT like being told what to do or forced to sit down. I HATE it. I even snuck and tried to do a little work yesterday and I had to be kindly corrected on like 3 errors within an hour. The 'rona brain fog has been REAL and I get MAD at myself instead of being gentle. Bleh.

So my prayer for myself is that I don't have a panic attack because I've been out of commission for the good part of 3 weeks. I hope that I speak to myself kindly as if I was speaking to somebody else. I will give my best tomorrow with all the deadlines/emails/projects I need to do... while also remembering-

"Working by grace helps you avoid making an idol out of hard work and mistaking your identity as being in your work or your achievements."

Dassit. Catch you on the interwebs tomorrow.

Wear your mask.